Zayn Malik has left One Direction for good. Some of you probably aren’t bothered about it, some of you think it’s sad, and some of you are like me; devastated.
I don’t think I fully understand it yet. I have talked about it, tweeted about, read articles, watch vines, YouTube videos, looked at hundreds of sad edits, but I still can’t believe it’s real. The thought of something I hold so dearly, that brings me so much joy and happiness every single day, has changed forever. One Direction will never be the same again, and to me that is terrifying.
I have never told the story about why these 5 guys mean so much to me.
In 2012 my life pretty much started falling apart. Everything around me changed, and I was feeling depressed like you wouldn’t believe. In May 2013 I stumbled upon the boys’ music video for Kiss You and I smiled. I felt intrigued, and for the first time in a very long time; happy. I started watching their other music videos and spent countless hours watching all of their interviews. Slowly I started to feel better. I smiled a lot more and generally started to feel a lot happier. They were the only thing that could bring a genuine smile on my face, and their music became my escape. Whenever I had a bad day (which was most days) I came home, plugged in my earphones and drifted into this world where there wasn’t anything but happiness. There were no grieve, no sadness, no illnesses, no bad nothing. There were just a lot of smiles, lots of support and lots of love. Not just from the boys but from all the girls and boys, who felt like I did and still do.
You may think it’s cringing and weird when someone says a band or an artist has saved their life. But it’s not. If I hadn’t found One Direction that day on YouTube, I don’t think I would be where I am today. I would most likely still be the depressed girl, who shut everyone and everything out because talking about her feelings was too painful. I am not that girl anymore, and I have Zayn, Niall, Louis, Liam and Harry to thank for that.
Please, think about how you would feel if something or someone you love is suddenly taken away from you. If something that brings you happiness everyday stops from one day to the other. How would you feel? Would you like it if other people said to suck it up? That they didn’t care? That they made fun of you for being upset? No, right? Don’t judge something you don’t understand. So please understand that Zayn leaving One Direction is devastating news for millions and millions of people around the world, including me. It’s not just a band to us.
Thank you for reading.